Doa saya utk org itu...

At this moment, semuanya rasa serba tak kena. I have nowhere to ventilate how I feel right now except through here. Heh, what a perfect way of making a come back huh? Dah lebih 7 bulan tak blogging, rasa pelik pulak. I know why I choose to let it out here: sebab, ONE, not many people aware about this blog, and TWO, kalau aku ckp pun, korang yg baca ni mmg tak kenal. Btul tak?

Ok, here goes...


Have you ever think highly of a person? Yang mana ko rasa dia almost perfect sebagai seorang manusia? Tak kira la dari fizikal dia, from the way he/she carries him/herself, etc. I just got to know this one person, say, more than 4 months now. We clicked very well since the beginning for unknown reasons. I regard this person more than a superior, I'd say, dah aku anggap macam my older siblings..and at some point aku anggap dia mcm ayahanda/bonda [cause i'm not revealing the person's gender here]. I really respect the way he/she deals with his/her colleagues, patients and their family members, friends and even orang2 bawahan dia. When I see how he/she treats his/her kids, aku rasa, how lucky enough to be anak dia sebab memang menyerlah rasa sayang dia as a parent, macamana dia protect anak2, nampak dia lembut & macam abit memanjakan anak-anak dia but dia tahu bila nak bersikap tegas or garang (bertempat)....etc. Nak cerita kat sini memang tak abis la sampai besok. All I could summarize is that, aku sangat menyanjung dia, aku rasa kalau one day aku ada rezeki to be at his/her place aku nak sgt treat semua org sekeliling and patient2 aku macamana yang dia practice skrg, aku sgt cemburu dgn anak-anak dia for having dia as a parent...I think so highly of this person until today...


Tell me how would you feel: bila mana org yg kau sanjung tinggi as above, suddenly reveals his dark deepest secret, rahsia agung, yang ko rasa ko tak boleh nak terima apa yang dia dah pernah buat?

When I listened to the secrets being revealed one by one, my jaw dropped. I was in ultimate shock. Apa yg dia pernah buat dulu adalah sesuatu yg not just me, tapi I'm pretty sure ramai kat luar sana pun tak boleh terima. Walaupun ada org akan pandang enteng and probably be saying, "Relaks la...mende tu dah common zaman2 skrg ni...tak terkejut pun", aku tetap rasa kesalahan tu adalah sesuatu yang mega major. Aku rasa sedih gila tapi takde la sampai menangis kat depan dia. Aku rasa sedih sebab aku tak pernah sangka dia mampu utk buat mende tu, never in my wildest imagination! Perasaan aku? mixed feeling, bercampur-baur. Tu pasal la aku rasa serba tak kena sampai skrg. Maybe I'm still in denial? Maybe.

In conclusion, jgn cepat menyanjung tinggi seseorang, sebaik mana pun dia sebab kita kan tahu bahawa tak ada manusia yg sempurna kat muka bumi ni. Bila kita terlalu mengagungkan seseorang, tu pasal la jadi denial bila dapat tahu the dark side of that person. Sekarang, aku rasa awkward pulak nak jumpa dia, nak lepak-lepak and borak-borak dgn dia.

To that person,
- I still respect you as my superior no matter what. Rasa respect itu ada sikit 'tercalar' dek rahsia agung ni tapi saya tgh cuba utk top-up balik!
- sometimes, kita kena buang rasa ego yang tinggi menggunung tu utk pulihkan keadaan. Im not at a place to give advice, siapa lah saya ni yg mmg takde experience langsung dlm life let alone marriage life. But I seriously think, there's no harm to seek help from the third person to talk some sense into ur significant other (since u told me u guys have been trying hard to sit down and talk but it doesnt seem to work out till now). As I've said tadi, it takes two to tango. But then again, siapalah saya yang nak bagi nasihat...
- Pintu taubat Allah Taala sentiasa terbuka. Terus tanamkan rasa taubat itu, always pohon keampunan & keredhaanNya. Always mintak dengan Dia, InsyaAllah takkan hampa..cuma cepat atau lambat aje. Maybe this is the time for u untuk cuba LEBIH mendekatkan diri kepada DIA. Remember what I said tadi, things always happen for a reason..always. Saya dah nampak. Maybe anda belum lagi..but you will.


Saya rasa macam nak terbang dan bersujud di depan Ka'abah saat ini, nak pohonkan keampunan & long-life kebahagiaan utk org ini. The person doesnt deserve all this. Tapi mungkin suatu ketika itu, dia terlalai plus godaan syaitan, who knows. Yang penting sekarang, dia dah berubah. Dia sgt inginkan kebahagiaan itu. Aku pun tak boleh maafkan apa yang dia dah buat. Tapi aku berdoa, dia akan menjadi a waaaay better person, luaran & dalaman and semoga kebahagiaan yang dia imagine kan depan aku tadi, akan jadi milik dia secara mutlak.

Insyaallah.
This is my doa for that person.
Amin.

THE END of Surgery

My days as 4th poster in Surgery is officially ended today.



i AM sad... this is the typical me everytime i finish one posting. I'm just being sentimental now. Huhu. Haha. Hmm.. well, here's what I've gathered for the past 4 postings,

1. I learnt a great deal in each posting I've done. The things I enjoyed most were of course the procedures. See? I'm more to skill/hands-on aspect *wink*


2. Do not mess up with your superiors or you will suffer for the next 4 months. haha.


3. Sometimes, the person that you hate or scared of most might turn out to be the ones being very nice to you.


4. Shit happens. But if it happens too frequent, it will demoralize you. Supports from close ones and the stay-positive-spirits always help.


5. It really does not matter if you werent the top student in your batch.


6. ATTITUDE, enough said.

As much as I wanted to finish this current posting, I am actually not really looking forward to go through the Paeds posting. Haihh..

• The list of current HOs in Paeds did not excite me. Hope things will change once Frienky starts to tag.


• The phone line in Ward 2 is so blardy poor!


• I predict I will be more short-tempered. Deym.


• I won't get to bug Brother T anymore. For the info, my morning round is never completed without us teasing each other. Haihh. I'm gonna miss that very much.


• No more referrals to the medical team, which means zero chance to encounter Brother Bulat and Brother Teddy-bear :(


• I just went to the SCN today to report myself. It's so depressing to see the little ones being ventilated.


• I envy Dell. Ortho is a very fun posting to do. And she gets Fazi-zi, Aserque and Frienky. I'm stuckd with Jelonet and my Juniors. Not fair!

This will go on and on...will never reach the end. I should stop here.

Oh I forgot something. Penutup hari terakhir saya di Surgery was when uncle at bed 13 (we called him BabY) passed away at exactly 1652 hours.

Cause of death: Sepsis. (Bro T was like, what? why? got meh?)

Rest in peace Uncle Baby.

I would love Opet to be my pet ;)

One of the bestest movies ever produced!

I'm SO PROUD of the Les Copaque team :D

Walaupun kitorang tergolong dalam antara malaysians yg paling lambat menonton citer nih...tapi...haha..sakit perut ketawa! siap ade somebody yg menangis masa Opet nak balik :( hihi

Seriously, everybody should go and watch this movie. I bet y'all will definitely come back for 2nd time. I myself don't mind to go n see it again.

I even promote this movie to Bulat..looks like dia dah agak terpengaruh hahahaha

5 stars! LIMA BINTANG.

TWO thumbs UP and UP!

enough said.

Go watch!

p/s: Lilo&Stitch pun tak bleh beat this movie. I tamau stitch to be my pet dah. eheh...

Meoww's trip [ Part I ]

Location: Kuching, Sarawak
Date: 12th Feb '09 to 14th Feb '09



The idea popped up in my head secara spontaneous, somewhere in early January if I'm not mistaken. Terus saja saya text mereka-mereka yg berkenaan. To my surprise, all of them agreed! Unfortunately, Mr. President [Dr. Rahman] and Dr. Fizi couldn't make it as their leaves application was not approved by their respective HODs.



Dell, Pakcik and myself were the first ones to arrive. Our flight touched down at Kuching Airport 20 minutes earlier than the scheduled time. Tepat 0910h, Iqbal & Miha pun sampai dari KL. Kak Pah & Wani were slightly late from home.

Reunion bagi "The Backstabbers & additions" pun bermula...



Day 1


Due to early morning flights and the pricy breakfasts offered on plane, we ended up in hunger. First tempat makan kami ialah Kopi o Corner. At the side wall, aku nampak signature Rosyam Noor and Nazril Idrus (hubby Sazzy Falak) -- adakah itu menggambarkan yg tempat makan ini famous? atau sedap? Entah.


First local delicacy yg kami cuba ialah Mee Kolok. Available in basah atau kering. Bezanya? Cuma sup tu diasingkan bagi yg kering. Seems like bihun sup biasa kan? Saya tak tahu apa rencahnya. Yg saya tau, mee kolok sedap. I prefer "kering" better. We came back for 2nd round the next day...dan kali akhir sebelum kami berlepas pulang ke Semenanjung. Betapa kuatnya penangan mee kolok ni..eheh.





After we checked in to teratak di Jalan Pisang (and Hung Hung Inn for the guys), kami dibawa ke Sarawak Cultural Village. Disebabkan kereta baru Kak Pah sangat comel dan hanya boleh memuatkan Iqbal & Pakcik at the backseats, Wani terpaksa menyewa sebuah kereta Wira.

I remembered all of us suddenly turned into "kanak-kanak ribena". I could see Pakcik & Iqbal were having so much fun, considering mereka tak pernah lagi ambik leave.. I'm not really into historical thingy, and rm60 per person that we paid utk ~2jam memang tak berbaloi sungguh. But because I went with my buddies and I had so much fun, the price was not a big deal. At 4pm, we entered its theatre for a cultural show. My girls dah pun jatuh hati pada seorang adam yg mampu berpusing di atas tiang dgn menggunakan his abdominal muscles. Perghh. Tak cause rectus haematoma ke mcm tu? Heh. In the end, Dell was chosen to dance onstage. I was laughing my head off. Maaf la babe, tapi ko memang kayu dalam menari. Kahkahkah. *gelak keji*. Mana tau tiba-tiba aku pun kena heret naik stage! Nasib baik ada asas tarian zapin masa pergi Jepun tahun 2000.

CIK PENARI 1: Pandai you menari? Memang selalu menari ke?

ME: Err..takdela. Sikit-sikit je. [eceh..merendah diri la pulak]

Yang geramnya, Pakcik dok sibuk merakamkan Dell drpd aku kat videocam dia. Maka takde la bukti at this moment...

Damai was one of the places I wanted to visit most as I learnt about it on the plane, kononnya it's a must visit spot when u come to Kuching. Ia nya terletak bersebelahan dgn Kampung Budaya Sarawak. Damai Resort tampak mewah dan membanggakan. I saw a number of tourists bersantai di tepian kolam, trying to get their bodies tanned...

Betul kata Wani dan Kak Pah, pantai Damai tak seindah yg digambarkan dalam pamphlets. But I don't regret coming all the way here..'cause I always have a soft spot for beaches. Tenang dan mendamaikan jiwa. Saya sanggup turun ke gigi air, till I wet half of my jeans. Ptg itu angin bertiup sgt kencang dan air dah mula pasang. Riak langit mendung menandakan kemungkinan hujan akan turun. Saya rasa puas dpt bermain air. And we took a lot of pictures too!

p/s: Iqbal, I saw ur latest post. Keji. haha. It wasnt as what u guys think okay! I'm totally straight!

Malamnya, we had dinner kat satu tempat makan bawah jambatan, I don't know what do they called it. Hehe. Another attempt to try out other local foods atas suggestions of Kak Pah dan Wani. Alhamdulillah, takde sesiapa yg end up with loose stools or frequent vomitings :P

midin - dimasak secara goreng belacan. Hasilnya? Saya rasa macam makan kangkung goreng belacan. Tambah pulak dgn nasi panas. Boleh tahan. Tapi memang betul cakap Wani, ayam panggang tu memang sedap. *drooling of saliva*

ambal - I have no idea ini ialah apa, as in, vegies ke, meat ke. All I know, it was in a small bamboo-like thingy. Masa tu diorang order ambal masak blackpepper. Takde perasaan. Saya rasa biasa aje. Mungkin tak mencapai tahap piawaian saya kot. Eheh no offense Wani, if u're reading this, I really appreciate ur effort, at least I've tried what's best on the lists kan?kan?

Otherwise, malam itu kami pulang kekenyangan. Memang tidur nyenyak...

*To be continued...Part II is next.

the eyebag

All these while, I have never bothered about me having eyebags..well...not that saya tak peduli langsung, I DO, but, errghhh.. I've tried afew products tapi nampak macam ada SIKIIIIITTTT aje perubahan. Haihh..macam nak give up pun ada jugak.

Until today.

I was walking towards Bilik Satria. I was late for housemen's CME: polytrauma by Ortho Dept. Sedang kakiku melangkah laju, terdengar satu suara yg biasa ku kenal, sayup-sayup into my left ear.

"GEMUUKKKKK! oi." Aduih. When one particular person calls me by this name, tak lain tak bukan lah tu, cik abang Bulat. Demi respect aku pada dia, I stopped, waiting for him to come nearby. On my right hand was a plastic bag, menyembunyikan souvenir yg aku bawak balik dari Sarawak untuk Kak Asiah si puteri Library HBP.

Bulat: Hah! Ape tu? Aku tau, tu mesti souvenir kan, bak sini?
Me: Hishh..ni kak Asiah punye la. You punya nanti I bagi, masa dinner nanti eh..
Bulat: Eh, make it Thursday la, Rabu I ada hal sikit..

*hhmmpphhh...baru nak sebut ari rabu. kacau betul.*

As I about to leave, suddenly Bulat made this sentence,
Bulat: Ehh..apasal eyebag kau teruk sangat???

Aku terbangak kat situ jugak. Perghh. Tatau apa nak respond. Rasa macam kena punch on the face. Perghh. Ada jugak macam *zapp* straight to the heart.

Bulat: Ha, yg merah kat dagu kau tu ape? Please tell your boyfriend, jgn la ganas sangat.

KEJI. Kena double dose pulak.

Me: Weyy, jgn nak buat cerita keji eh. Takde maknanya bf bf ni. Ni kan birthmark saya, berapa kali nak cakap??!!!

Again, untuk kali yg ke 218,
red marking on my chin itu bukannya satu lovebite or whatever you guys are thinking at this moment. NOPE. Bukan. Takda maknanya! Itu tanda lahir saya..my birth mark! It has been there since...whenever! haha. sejak saya lahir ke dunia. Ada faham?

Berbalik kepada tajuk asal, disebabkan rasa malu dan segan kepada Bulat, dunno why, saya telah pun menyahut cabaran untuk mencuba produk yg baru: ZA - Dark circle gone. Ni kalau tak berkesan, memang degil punya eyebag la nih! hihi
alamak, blogspot tamau upload pulak gambar ZA tu. Haihh. Give up.

p/s: will blog about Meoowws trip next time.